i didn’t come this far to only come this far.

What a hectic past couple of weeks!  I have been working hard studying for my GMAT and getting ready for a big move this weekend.  That coupled with a lot stuff going on at work has made this week pretty stressful.  But finishing up BBG 1.0 for the second time made it all better.  It’s the little things.  I started BBG 2.0 yesterday and I’m already loving it.  A friend asked me the other day why I liked the workouts and kept sticking with them and I really had to think about it.  It’s become so much a habit at this point that I just do it.  I enjoy somedays more than others, but overall, the results I’ve seen are far worth it.  As I head in to BBG 2.0, this quote I found the other day sums up my journey thus far perfectly.


I have seen significant changes in my person throughout this entire experience and crave more.  I don’t want to look back because I know the harder I work and push myself forward, the more I will achieve.  I don’t ever want to be a slave to anything, particularly a workout plan, but there are two things that really resonate with me with Kayla’s plan.  The first is that it is all mapped out for me, and the second is that it brings with it a community of insanely supportive women that only want what’s best for each other.

When I first attempted to try weightlifting at the gym, I think it’s safe to say it was a colossal failure.  I had no idea what I was doing and I would wander aimlessly from machine to machine praying I was doing it right and counting down the milliseconds until I could officially call my workout done.  Every workout was kind of a haphazard, disjunct flop around the gym that left me with little to no results and little to no motivation to continue.  By having a plan mapping out exactly what I should do when I get to the gym, I feel more structured and excited to get to the gym. I know what I’m doing when I get there and I can’t back out because it needs to get done and I’m the type of person who lives for structure.  If you are just starting working out, go in with a plan.  It makes everything seem less overwhelming and will help you keep the eye on the prize in the long run.

The other aspect I love about the BBG is the community I’ve found through social media.  Fitness can be a highly individual thing.  I know I prefer to not talk to a soul when I am at the gym.  I just get in my own zone and go.  But, with this online community, I can swap stories about my workouts with other like minded people.  I can learn from their successes and failures and they can learn from mine.  We are all working for the common good and that is to better ourselves.  Support systems are crucial when you’re making changes.  Seek out friends in unexpected places.  You never know what else you’ll get out of it.


12 more weeks crossed off the list.

I have officially completed Kayla Itsine’s Bikini Body Guide two times through.  That’s way more burpees, push-up, and ab combinations than I ever thought I would do in my life.  Having completed the guide twice has made me realize how much I am capable of.


Before starting the BBG, I worked out a whole heck of a lot.  I spent hours in the gym slogging away on the treadmill and the elliptical.  I would occasionally do some arm exercises at the end and then a plank while my oatmeal cooked.  I always thought I was strong and fit, but I had no idea what I was really capable of.  My first round through the BBG was cathartic.  I started seeing changes in everything I was doing.  I could open jars more easily, run a little bit farther and a little bit faster, food was no longer an enemy and I started actually caring about what went in to my body.

When I lived alone, I was a frequent fan of cereal for dinner.  And for breakfast.  And for lunch if I wanted it.  I knew carbs were good for runners and I was running upwards of 25-30 miles a week, so it seemed like it fit.  As I started into my BBG journey, I started realizing I needed way more protein and more balance all around.  Nowadays, my dinners look more like the picture above.  Fresh foods.  Vibrance.  True fuel.

I swore off cereal one day last year.  I replaced it with oatmeal which seemed to do the same.  I’ve since started adding egg whites and a side of peanut butter to the mix to make sure I’m getting a well rounded amount of carbs, protein, and fats.  I’ve seen a huge change in my progress because of these subtle changes.

This time through the BBG, however, I have seen a different kind of change that has taken some getting used to.  I haven’t gained or lost a pound, but my body is changing.  I have always been quite small (sometimes smaller than I’d like to be honest) and have had immense pride in my petiteness.  So, as my arms began to grown and my legs and my bum, I wasn’t the happiest camper.  Yes, I know this was all happening because I was getting stronger, but it was just hard to see happen.  Pants didn’t fit the same and neither did some shirts, but I just keep reminding myself that this is for the good of me.  The changes I’m seeing are going to help me now and in the future and you know what?  I’m proud.  I’m proud of growing and becoming a better me.  I can get through exercises I never thought possible.  I can be proud of being stronger and healthier than most people I know.  I can know that I worked for this.  I earned this, no matter what shape I am now or may become, it’s only for the best.