fitness idols and why it’s okay to be your own motivation.

What an epic week it’s been, ladies and gentlemen.  After hopping over to Dallas for a bit for work, I landed in Chicago for a little more work and then some play time with 13 of my best friends from college.  If you haven’t had a chance to go to Chicago, you are missing out.  I was lucky enough to be born and raised there, so it will always have a special place in my heart and I love showing it off to anyone who wants a good tour. 

My mini-vacation was very active involving at least 26,000 steps a day (you’re the real MVP, Jawbone Up), two soulcycle classes, yoga in Millennium Park and a 5 mile run.  So, my fitness definitely didn’t take a backseat.  I did have deep dish for every dinner possible, so, you know, balance.
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I am very aware that I was the only one on the trip to make a concerted effort to get up at 7:30 am to get a workout in after some of our later nights, but that’s just something that I do.  It comes with the territory of knowing me.  I don’t lack in the motivation department that’s for sure, but I’m also hyper aware I’m in the vast minority over here. Most people I know turn to other sources for motivation.

My dad is very intrinsically motivated too, but when I got him a Jawbone Up for Christmas one year, he put the pedal to the metal and 10,000 steps minimum was not just a daily goal but a daily requirement.  One of my other friends is motivated by signing up for classes instead of hitting the gym on her own time. Others I know find motivation through social media and following those who post about their own journeys.

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I, personally, love learning about what other people have done and are doing in terms of their fitness when I need that extra oomph.  Nothing motivates me quite like scrolling through Instagram and reading about other people crushing their workouts when I really don’t want to go.  But, I always take it with a grain of salt.  Remember that the people whose days your reading about are often only presenting the good parts.  They don’t always show a picture of them struggling to get motivation themselves, having a meal where they got uncomfortably full while celebrating a good friend’s birthday, or just having a bad life hair day.  A lot of the times, the more celebrity a person is, the less personal they come off.  And while that can be great for motivation, it’s not entirely accurate.

I’ll be the first to tell you, there are going to be days when you don’t want to workout.  I defy you to find me a person who has not felt this way.  But you know what, on those days you have two choices: dust off your bootstraps and get to steppin’ or take a mental health day and just do you.  Contrary to popular belief, not every workout has to be the best workout you’ve ever had and that’s okay and normal!  But that’s not necessarily what every page would have you believe.

I have actually started to unfollow some bigger accounts in favor of smaller ones because I’m kind of sick of looking at perfectly styled clothes and immaculately coifed hair in pictures with the caption “just killed my workout”.  Granted, I suppose you could look like that after an insanely hard session, but the odds of you looking like a sweaty mongrel are slightly higher and that’s just what I want to see.  I want to see people like me who are just trying to better themselves and not always trying to get the latest endorsement deal or make a boatload of money from taking pretty pictures.

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Next time you need a little push, think about how far you yourself have come instead of turning to a perfectly curated page of fitness glory.  Even if you’re just starting to hit the gym, give yourself a damn pat on the back for all the times you’ve done something to better yourself.  Maybe you can jog a mile quicker than when you started.  Maybe you don’t feel as out of breath when you’re on the bike.  Maybe you can pick up heavier weights today than yesterday.  The progress will come and you will be proud of it, I promise.  But know that at the end of the day, you and you alone are the one who is bettering themselves and that’s pretty awesome.

-sj

Macro Tracking Month 1 Update and Discount for the NJ Perfect10Miler!

I’ve officially been tracking macros for over a month!  Time flies, guys.  Seriously, I am loving this new diet change.  I’ll detail it a little further in a second, but first here’s a recap of life and such.

Injury update:  Hi there, still injured.  My ankle had been feeling good and I was 100% stoked that things were seemingly moving forward, but these past couple of days have been a complete 180.  Womp womp.  New pain has started appearing higher up in my calf, so I have no idea what’s going on, but if it could stop, that’d be great.  That’s not stopping me from signing up for races though.  I’m teaming up with CGI Racing for ThePerfect10 10 Miler and I’m stoked.  I loved their Love Run and am excited to take on this more manageable challenge.  If you want a discount on your entry use my code:

PERFECT10STEPHANIEJ 

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Life update: Things have been all kinds of go, go, go over here.  With the weather picking up, I’ve been enjoying having some friends over and taking Boo on epically long walks around the preserve.  It’s crazy how fast stuff is growing over here.  At least the rain is good for something.

Now to Macro World:

It’s no secret that I haven’t always had the healthiest relationship with food.  In high school and at the beginning of college, I ate whatever I wanted whenever I felt like it and exercised occasionally, but didn’t think twice about what was going into my mouth for the most part.  By my sophomore year, I can’t say that mentality was the same.  I forwent food in favor of getting stuff done.  I can’t count the amount of times I grabbed something small for lunch in a cup and ran off to my room to practice or to work on school work.  The same could be said for dinner, which I usually had to eat at odd times because of my grueling rehearsal and class schedules.  There would even be times when I would have back to back classes that required me to eat a Velvetta instant mac and cheese while walking across campus at night.  Things were awesome and I was the epitome of health and wellness.

College ended and I ended up on my own for the first time truly in charge of my own meals.  No parents or servery to make me anything.  Just me and some shopping bags full of ingredients that I had no idea what to do with.  I lived on majority cereal for almost and entire year, I’d say.  That probably contributed heavily to some of my health issues, but who cares when you’ve got the sugary goodness of Special K Vanilla Almond (which will forever and always be my favorite cereal of all time) to keep you satiated.  I had a lot of eating disorder like tendencies at this time as well and went through some pretty extreme times at the end of college and the beginning of my adulting career.  Things just weren’t going well and I was wasting away to more or less nothing.  I started losing energy, hair, and friendships all over my lack of ability to maintain a healthy relationship with food.

Fast forward to moving up to New Jersey with my boyfriend.  My relationship with food became a lot healthier because I was forced to actually cook real meals for me and a real other person.  A person who didn’t feel like eating two bowls of cereal and calling it a meal.  He may have been on to something.  And he also starting teaching me about appropriately fueling following a workout.  I took this to heart and ate pretty much anything anytime I wanted, but I wasn’t really happy with my choices.  I felt very out of control and I never knew appropriate portions of food to eat.  I would have massive dinners and tiny breakfasts and I could never figure out why I was always so hungry by the end of the day and eating the pantry bare.

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When I started tracking macros with a coach, a lightbulb went off in me.  There’s a happy balance between tracking too strictly and not fueling your workouts and going overboard.  I honestly don’t think I would have been able to find this balance on my own.  Here are the highlights I’ve experienced thus far:

  • Being able to go out to eat with friends and actually have fun.  I have gone out for drinks and meals a handful of times over this past month and I’m really proud of myself.  Going out to meals used to stress me out because I had no control.  Now, I make sure to try and plan out what I’m going to have the day before and leave a lot of wiggle room.  For instance, the other day I went out for my friend’s graduation dinner and I didn’t know what the plan was.  So, I tracked my normal meals a little lighter and left a lot of protein and fats for dinner, so when the menu came and it had chicken on it, I was set and good to go.  Plus, I even had macros for a couple of glasses of wine.  Win/win.
  • I am waking up feeling awesome.  I no longer feel over-stuffed or underfed when I wake up or go to sleep and it is an A+ feeling.  I feel healthy.
  • My workouts are showing off.  Finally.  I’ve been working out for years, but I have never felt as defined as I do now.  It’s nice to see your hard work paying off.
  • I no longer have “fear foods”.  If I want something, I’ll eat it and work around it later.  I used to not allow peanut butter in the house and now I eat 2+ servings on the daily.

I also want to be very clear, this is not a weight loss method for me.  I am already a small girl, I just want two things: to be happy with the body that I work so hard for and to have a healthy relationship with food.  So far, I am moving very nicely towards these goals and I couldn’t be happier.

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I’m sure you’re wondering if there have been any downsides thus far?  The answer: Of course.  Starting out was really hard.  I had a hard time grasping that balance.  There were somedays when I didn’t space out my meals appropriately and I was starving by the time I went to bed.  There were other times where I just snacked incessantly on top of my macros for no reason at all.  And there have even been a couple days when I’ve just said, Nope, not today and declared a cheat meal.  But I know that when I get back on track the next day, I’m solid.  I’ve got a good foundation and I’m seeing progress that I’ve wanted for so long.  I’ll continue to provide macro updates as this journey continues, but so far I’m pretty proud of myself and actually happy with my nutrition for the first time in a long time.

-sj